Anyway, welcome back leggy queen. One of the joys of blogging is knowing I can totally let loose and be myself over here. I really love the tapping on my keyboard when I blog but I guess I'll live with typing on the phone screen for now. 😐
So how have you been, Huimin? You've been missing for MORE THAN TWO YEARS! What made you decide to return?! Well the answer is simple - you're my sanctuary, my 避风港。No one will know I'm here and I can talk about life however and whichever way I want it to be!
Currently I'm at this stage of life where I'm trying to figure out how to transition to the next phase. I just got "educated" that I needed to work on my character flaws in order to be a better person who will in turn, benefit people around me. But the begging question would be, shouldn't I be loved for who I am?
I acknowledge that I'm weird. Sometimes. Well okay, most of the time. I have weird interpretations of things and am a stubborn mule. The most stubborn mule you can ever find. I'm fixated on my thinking and are not receptive to other people's points of views BUT. But but but, there's always a but. I can change and I will change if I set my mind to it. For the greater good. For people I love and care. But would this also mean I'll lose myself? That I won't be Huimin anymore? This is one of the parts I'm vexed about. I don't want to lose myself but it takes little or no effort to psycho me honestly. Will I be happy? What is happiness, really? I don't seem to know anymore... so I'll start searching for the answer! What is it that really makes me happy???? Huimin can you please start living life for YOURSELF for ONCE??!!!!
我只想说，我真的真的很努力……我会很努力
