#1121: I need to get well by Friday.

I bought this in an attempt to bring down the cough and itchy throat but to no avail.

I woke up this morning with a horrible headache.
I decided to head to the doc.


She's my fav doc cos...



and Samuel, my colleague is funny.



These stuff are "magically conjured" by my "fairygodmother" and I hope they will get me well by my big day.
xx Fingers crossed xx

#1120: Going private.

If you are using IE to view my blog, you should be seeing this pop-up.
Same goes for Firefox users.
I've already typed my username and password for my page so I wouldn't be able to provide a screenshot for Firefox browser but ANYWAY, this pop-up came into existence because I privatised my tweets.
Private account for Twitter now because someone is on my toes.
I did display my Twitter link on my Facebook profile and that was probably where he got the link but whatever.
I have since gone private.
Y'know loud as I can be, it doesn't mean I like to publicise my life.
ON THE CONTRARY, whether you people believe it or not, I'm very much a private person.
This is not the first time that I'm emphasizing this on my blog that you esteemed readers are a fortunate lot to be able to read this blog because I told you the link PERSONALLY.
If I find out that some stranger is having access to my life story, and believe me I HAVE MY WAYS IN KNOWING SO, I will privatise this blog as well and that would be the last thing I want to do.
I would never want to have to resort to that.

Privatising my twitter account is real leceh (malay word for troublesome) but...ARGH, I have nooo choice!
I will lift the ban soon and I hope the person will go away eventually.
Though as you all clearly know me, I'm a person who doesn't know how to say N-O.
:(

Fate is clearly playing a trick on me.
Why oh why would it send someone with the exact same name just when I'm starting to get myself out of this unnecessary emotional tussle?

PS: I have been having nightmares the past two nights. I don't know the reason(s) behind it or it could also be a cumulation of stress plus fear plus irritation and of course, heartbreak. I'm still nursing my broken heart. :( One morning, I woke up with my face in tears. Not those mild tearing but my whole face was wet. I thought the rain seeped through my house but that was ridiculous okay. I could not remember the dream but I know my heart ached. Very much. When I woke up and I knew I was clearly sober, I continued to cry. Man, what is happening! I should be in joy every day of my life. This crap has got to stop.

#1119: Wenz's Advanced Bday Party!

When I arrived late cos I knocked off at 9, I hurriedly went up to her and gave her a hug.
I thought it was going to be a soft-soft kind of hug but she hugged me rather tightly and said "thanks for coming, scoob".
Oh man, I was darn touched.

#1118: The thing about women.

#1117: My online Twitter profile is screwed, just like the user.

My profile is screwed, but others' are fine.
Just my luck.

#1116: 一个少女的故事。

This girl's story is kinda touching IMO.
Read on.

我总是比别人慢几拍。
我天真的以为，我们可以持续的维持当时的现状， 当时的快乐，当时的舒服，而且还可以各自享受彼此的陪伴。
人们总是说，习惯会慢慢变成喜欢。
这句话是真的。
我曾经问过他，要是有一天我们突然疏远了，那该怎么办？
他简单地回答说，“天下无不散之宴席。。。”
我心里一阵的痛， 感觉他已有预感那天将会来到。

果然，无不预警的，我们渐渐疏远了。
我其实也没怎么察觉到而只是以为他很忙而已。
直到有一天，我们相约吃饭，他随意地告诉我一句，“我有喜欢的的人了。”
我愣了一下，两下，假装没听到而请他再重复一遍。
他接着说了“他们” 的故事。

我听着听着，心里很不是滋味但却还能强忍一丝欢笑和装着一副很好奇的样子。
我一直都以为我天生有一副好演技， 这次能派上用场了。
当时，我必须离开前往另一个地方，所以先失陪了。
我坐在公车上，回想起他刚刚说的事情，眼泪也不知觉的流了下来。

事情办妥后，我回去找他。
他喝了一些啤酒，我当然不放心他一个人被丢在那里。
我直接告诉他，“我不会像你那时丢下我那样丢下你，我会保证你安全回家。”
接着，我们连同老板一齐聊天。
聊到一半，老板问了一句，“你们俩是一对吗？”
我们异口同声地说“不是！”
我说， “怎么可能？他刚刚才告诉我说他最近喜欢一个女生！”
老板有些怀疑， 继续盘问下去。
他最后招架不住而冒出一句，“曾经有， 但现在没了。”

“曾经有， 但现在没了。”
这句话，我装着没听到。
"Used to, but not anymore" were the exact words that pierced my heart.
在那一霎那间，我的心很痛， 很痛。
我一直灌酒，假装没听到。

因为他那一句话，我忽然清醒了。
他，不可能再像以前那样对我。
我们曾经有些什么， 但现在却什么都没有了。
他，已经喜欢上别人了。
变了，人心变了。
Change is the only constant in life, he once told me.

回想起来，我确实错过了很多机会。
有好些时候， 我感觉他像是在暗示什么但我却逃避。
是我自己放弃了机会， and second chances do not come by easy.
我发现，我很会断送自己的幸福。
我必须失去了才懂得珍惜。
我在他告诉我他喜欢别人的时候才真正地明白到我其实是对他有感觉的。
但，那已经太迟了。

我曾经对他说过，我在对待感情的时候是非常诚实的。
也因为这样， 有一次， 他的朋友在我们俩面前问我有没有可能有一天会喜欢上他， 我回答说会。
他因而露出惊喜的一笑。

我知道我没有理由吃醋， 因为由始至终， 我从未和他表态过。
可是， 当我想着我可能和这个人有什么什么的时候但却自己没好好掌握的时候， 我很恨我自己没胆。
我现在真的觉得很遗憾。

我本来是想跟他说，但在我看来， 他现在过得很快乐。
我应该不去打扰他的幸福。
我宁愿把我想说的一切全都隐藏起来， 深深埋在我内心深处。

现在最重要的是把这段没结果的单恋给渐渐忘掉， 然后展开新一段的人生。

We went from strangers, then friends, then more than friends, then strangers again.
It's kinda sad don't you think?

#1115: Nothing beats love from the States.

I was so touched to see this lying on the table the moment I stepped into the house.
As I opened the envelope, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes man SERIOUSLY.
I don't know why but I just feel very very touched.
I have been kept busy planning for my birthday chalet these days and seeing this just makes me feel that the effort I put in to make the celebration an enjoyable one with my beloved family and friends are worth the while.
I will work towards making March the 26th, 2010 one of the most memorable days of my life.











You may all think that this is just a simple letter but has anyone heard of the saying, "simplicity is bliss"?
And that is why I can't stop getting overwhelmed by the simplest of things.
This is a letter filled with blessings from a friend who may be a thousand miles away but feels so ever close to me.
Mindy, you're such a wonderful friend.

#1114: I Told You So.

I hope that someday, one fine day, I would say "now I've found somebody new, and you will never break my heart in two again".

#1113: Good Men Are Like Rare Gems.

Jack Neo can certainly tout himself as Singapore's Tiger Woods.
Shin Min Daily reported that he may have had up to eleven mistresses all his life which is oddly similar to the sex-obsessed golfer.
So many cases of infidelity among celebrated people have surfaced recently that I have to do a double take at what the world has now become.
Where does the very basic of foundation on morals stand in today's society?
Having extra-marital affairs is such a common thing these days that I see it everywhere.
I know of some myself and it has also hit close to home too.
People I spoke to who are involved in such scandals told me that it was all for the "thrill" of it besides sleeping with someone other than one's spouse and to quote Emma Roberts in the movie "Valentine's Day", "we cannot possibly sleep with only one person in our life, can we?"
OH MANNN, what is this world coming to...?

Don't couples who have the audacity to commit adultery ever re-think of the moment where they exchanged marriage vows with their lifelong partner, promising to be true to them in good times and in bad?
My colleague Faiz told me that the reason why good guys are good is because they have been bad in the past and have since learnt their mistakes.
Guys will stray, nonetheless.
Let them stray before handing them your hand, he advised.
Of course, there are rare gems out there but the thing is, WHERE ARE THEY?!
Probably taken up or... I don't know.

Whatever the case, I still stand by my traditional values and I like it that way.

#1112: I spent my Sunday as a HAPPY&CAREFREE girl!

I got too bored and took out my almost-rotting hair curler to have some fun.

Curly on the left and straight on the right. HAHAHA I know it looks kinda retarded.




While I was busy curling the other half of my head, some crashers hijacked my webcam and took silly shots.

#1111: Seven long years to reach ONEONEONEONE.

How long more to reach #2222, or #9999, or even... #11111?
Will I still be blogging by then?
I guess not.
If it takes 7 years to write 1111 posts, it would take me 63 years to hit 9999 posts.
I think I would have already printed my entire blog out by then.
I would spend my afternoons reading post after post to my grandchildren.
Or, I may have already left this world.

Daryl says on his fb status that we gotta live life as if we're dying.
I TOTALLY AGREE!
I am a religious fan of existentialism.

- The early 19th century philosopher Søren Kierkegaard, posthumously regarded as the father of existentialism, maintained that the individual is solely responsible for giving his own life meaning and living that life passionately and sincerely, in spite of many existential obstacles and distractions including despair, angst, absurdity, alienation, and boredom.

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism

#1110: Sunday.

Today is one of those days where I feel like lazing at home and do nothing.
However, like always, time is never on my side and I have tons of things on my to-do list.
I need to make a trip down to the cobbler's to fix the soles on my heels.
I need to go and buy a tube of Colgate because I used up the last bit of my toothpaste this morning and have no liking towards the type my other family members use.
I also need to go to IKEA to do some stocking up.
-lets out a hugeee looong sigh-

#1109: Just to liven things up.

#1108: Happiness is always there within reach, no matter how long it lasts.

This is love.

Her name is Katie Kirkpatrick , 21 yrs old.
Next to her is her fiancé, Nick, 23.
This picture was taken prior to their wedding January 11th, 2005.
Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy.
Here Nick awaits while she finishes one of the sessions.

Read the rest of the story at http://versusversace.tumblr.com/post/421305552

#1107: Postcards.

Spent my afternoon penning postcards and letters to be sent overseas.





Sometimes I just think how invaluable smses are in comparison to self-penned letters.
Oh, and I'm so ever proud that I can still write a decent letter of chinese characters.

#1106: 26 is my birth date and the age of my buddy. HAHAHA!

Omnia 2 vs iPhone.


He loves Taiwan like his life and I got him a ticket to his beloved destination.


Speaking of tickets, I really got two REAL tickets as a 21st birthday gift for a very very good friend of mine and myself for a day's trip to KL. She has been wanting to re-visit the place again and I got her mother's approval. :) Can't wait for September to comeeee.... Heehee.



I thought a pen would be nice as a present too as he is a working professional now and his pens are really damn cui. HAHAHA!







Happy Belated Birthday, Buddy!

#1105: March- hot, sultry March.

I want another Earth hour soon.